14Sandals
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Prayer has shown to have physical effects on people and sometimes reality.
I can link you to studies if you like.
Very interesting family dynamic!
Can you go into more depth regarding what you said about your astral traveling experiences?
What kind of rules felt broken? What do you mean when you say you have "given up on the psychic thing?
Not sure if I could call them astral travel. I tried meditation and new age stuff, but nothing stuck. I joined and spied on some new age groups, and felt sorry that I didn't have those kinds of psychic/ ESP experiences. Spirituality frustrated me greatly. It was when I stopped trying that I got the weird dreams.
Dream #1: the inception-like dreams with the "gatekeeper" (2012, good thing I'd posted it on another forum so the description is pretty detailed)
I was asleep in the bedroom just beside the living room. That's in real life. I chose the place so that I can wake up at the sound of the doorbell, or someone can wake me up.
First, similar to the dream I had the other night, I was haunted by a new melody that I was supposed to "catch" and put on paper. But this time I was determined to catch it, wake up, find a paper and write down the lyrics/ melody. Apparently it was a complete song. Despite my efforts to wake up, the song passed me by, and as if on a radio, was replaced by a pop song... So in my dream, I fell back asleep.
The second "dream within a dream" was like this: my elder brother was playing a video game both of us played (again this is a common theme to my dreams). I commented on his progress - I wasn't as good at game strategy and quit playing earlier. And then I realized, the game didn't exist in real life. This is just a dream. So I fell back to sleep.
What happened next was what scared me. I suddenly had the thought "You're not supposed to be here". Supposed to be where? Someone was talking to me. A woman. I was invading her territory. I'm sorry, I don't know where and how to go... I'm in a dream, right? She said something like "I don't know why you're here where you're not supposed to, but we gatekeepers (meaning they in that world, not me and her) aren't supposed to change the status quo. Go back to your own world."
She did not sound unkind, but I was shocked and horrified. She was talking by telepathy and she could hear my thoughts. All in a flash, I thought, not only was I thinking in a dream (that's rare - dreams usually just happen), I had found myself in another plane. I remembered all the David Icke and alien stuff I used to read and thought, oh no "the gatekeepers" are the Watchers! They might think I'm trying to invade their world and kill/torture me. But I swear it's an accident... So in my head I screamed and screamed and tried to wake myself up.
I found myself back in the room, with a limited field of vision, although I was still asleep. My aunt checked the bedroom and I screamed "wake me up! wake me up!" She must have been shocked, but she talked to me even though I was still in bed. While in my mind I was very much awake, walking across the room, out into the living room, the dining room. I saw my brother, and to check my status said "Bro, am I awake yet? Where is my body?" He said I was still asleep in bed. I said that they had to wake me up; my dream was freaking me out.
In the dream, I fell asleep, and then found myself back in bed. No relatives to talk to this time. So I figured another way. I could see a little, and lifted my head, and arms. Okay, I was awake. Wrong. My mind was playing tricks on me. When I cleared up my "vision", I saw that I was still lying down. I took the pillow from my head and whacked my legs trying to wake myself up. I felt the pillow hit, but that wasn't real - my eyes told a different story. I willed myself to wake up for a long and agonizing time, until within the dream, I fall back asleep.
I woke up in the gatekeepers' world. I saw the woman again, hovering over a sea/ wide river. I heard the sound of water surrounding us. Then I realized we were BOTH floating over the water. She saw I was scared and seemed to take pity. She said something like, "I (this place) am only 5 kilometers away from your place. It is easy to slip back there. Please do not come here again." Strangely, that made perfect sense! Then I thought I was being drawn in, by sound. So I tested the theory, I covered my ears and floated away from her.
And now I'm back. As soon as I woke up in real life, I looked for someone to confirm that I am indeed awake... and if I was screaming in the bed earlier. I was not. Nobody heard anything.
This is not the first time, but now I'm actually scared that I might sleep and not wake up for a long time while having such a dream. It sounds amusing at hindsight, but it's really scary when you're there, not knowing what you did and not being able to wake up properly.
Note: this was before I went back to college to study music. I was seriously considering majoring in piano but that dream freaked me out and I hesitated for a while.
Dream #2: finding my Akashic record (finally?)
Dream #3: talking with my soul mate as she's already part of the Divine Feminine (but I'm not?)
Will elaborate on dream #2 or #3 if requested.