Krumplenump
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Some great points and advice there Ortorin. However, many are far easier said than done. An additional dilemma for me is that I have never EVER found a girl that I like beyond mere physical reasons and I am 20. Communicating with such a female beyond mere chit chat would seem, to me, to be shallow on my part despite any male urges I might have in response to a pair of pert boobies.
The point is, I am 20 and have recently found one girl whom I have not lumped into this category. Trouble is, and maaany of you will probably hear me moan, she has just got married. Though I hasten to add under circumstances that I guagued to not be for the right reasons. the FIRST female I've thought of emotionally, gotten attached to and she is practically inaccessible. Just my luck. She is extemely keen to keep up contact with me however and I do not know if that is for:
1. she feels she have found a more like-minded friend in me because her husband and social circle are mostly 10 - 15 years older than her
or;
2. because she may see me as a potential partner in the future should her marriage fail (shes even talked to me about that once briefly, her marriage failing that is). Perhaps to my own detriment I cling to this like a fly clings to shit.
I know what I should do is continue my life and not let it become swamped with obsessions of her, however doing so is very very heart-wrending since this is my FIRST love and at the moment the love I see as my ONLY love and I can't bloody well have it. : (
I don't know if I'm asking you for advice, ortorin, I think I may have given myself the proper answer myself above, I just can't get this frustration and longing out of my soul.
The point is, I am 20 and have recently found one girl whom I have not lumped into this category. Trouble is, and maaany of you will probably hear me moan, she has just got married. Though I hasten to add under circumstances that I guagued to not be for the right reasons. the FIRST female I've thought of emotionally, gotten attached to and she is practically inaccessible. Just my luck. She is extemely keen to keep up contact with me however and I do not know if that is for:
1. she feels she have found a more like-minded friend in me because her husband and social circle are mostly 10 - 15 years older than her
or;
2. because she may see me as a potential partner in the future should her marriage fail (shes even talked to me about that once briefly, her marriage failing that is). Perhaps to my own detriment I cling to this like a fly clings to shit.
I know what I should do is continue my life and not let it become swamped with obsessions of her, however doing so is very very heart-wrending since this is my FIRST love and at the moment the love I see as my ONLY love and I can't bloody well have it. : (
I don't know if I'm asking you for advice, ortorin, I think I may have given myself the proper answer myself above, I just can't get this frustration and longing out of my soul.