actually yes...this is a looooong story, but an oddly wonderful one
so on the 23rd I did tell her I like her in my typical awkward and as she put it adorable manner of just saying.... "___, I like you."
Then she said, "I know, um look anything that's gonna come out of mouth right now isn't gonna make any sense, so lemme think about it." We both were being awkward (this all happened after watching Dark Knight with her and eating girl scout cookies)
So saturday rolls along and we meet up to go out and eat for lunch, hit up a used bookstore just to look around and then we go walk around the park. In the park she starts acting this way where she says she wants to say something so we sit down and then she says, "This is gonna be the most awkward rejection you've ever gotten."
So 2 hours pass by and after lots of talking and figuring things out this is what we discovered.
-she liked when i put my arm around her, she likes having just me and her time, she likes me crushing on her and making her special, she thinks i would make a perfect boyfriend
-but she is asexual as she puts it and just doesn't have hormones and she doesn't like the pressure of dating
-so i'm still crushing on her and she doesn't mind it (she actually likes it), she still wants to do just me and her time, but we aren't dating, this is no pressure, no expectations, see where it goes...i told her though that if people think were dating its her fault
-my friends were like WTF? okay...whatever and NV thinks says were practically dating
-her friends think were both out of touch with reality and thinks she's immoral and morality is a social convention and she's a poet so it's all good
-though she said that if get a crush on someone else to go for it, though I REALLY not going to because i'm still crushing on her and knowing that she doesn't mind makes it all the better
SO LONG STORY SHORT: she knows that i'm crushing on her, but were keeping the same friendship dynamic we have and are going to see where it takes us
....so pseudo-para-dating?.....ehh fuck it, no way to categorize this....except for that i'm happy with it