because I uncounciously always believe that I'm defective
and my hesitations to follow the group is one of the causes I think. I also do the quietly hesitating like you do, anly my hesitation is never noticed. Maybe because people just ignore it, or don't care, or are tired because I always do it?
I think the hardest for me is to decide to stand for what I want or believe or to follow the group because I need them and I need them to like me... I always want to be concidered to myself and to others and therefore whatever I decide it is always inconcidered to one of them
and my hesitations to follow the group is one of the causes I think. I also do the quietly hesitating like you do, anly my hesitation is never noticed. Maybe because people just ignore it, or don't care, or are tired because I always do it?
I think the hardest for me is to decide to stand for what I want or believe or to follow the group because I need them and I need them to like me... I always want to be concidered to myself and to others and therefore whatever I decide it is always inconcidered to one of them