Reon

Well, if people here say you're kind, then you ARE kind. We are good at spotting/seeing kindness in people. =) Really? why are you so argumentative? Not that I have a problem with it. I like an intellectual argument every once in a while.

"go with the flow like water" reminds of something Bruce Lee said once. He said that the best way to live your life is to become water, because water can take on the shape of the container and adapt well without much adversity. Water is gentle enough as to nurture life, and strong enough as to crush obstacles. When I heard him say it in an interview, I realized that that was the philosophy I go by most of the time.

Haha, I used to be the girl who would turn away. i guess it's because she was observing you so intently that you caught her off guard and she felt weird/awkward bout it. I've learned to hold the gaze of someone when their talking to me. It is slightly intimidating, but it takes practice to stare back or at least keep up with the intensity. My eyes are very expressive, so It felt like my soul/privacy is being invaded lol

I don't think you're arrogant at all. But if it's an image that you're projecting on the forums, then does that mean I don't know you? lol I say be yourself here, and see what feed back you get from people. They're not going to jump at your throat or shun you because of it, if you seek help they'll definitely provide you with it.

Well in this case its about being able to do a substantial amount of push ups and pull ups. It has been about two years since I was doing a consistently physical job and my upper body has suffered from inactivity.

Well when I speak of letting go of my fears I mean not letting them rule my life, just accepting that they are there and moving forward no matter what.

Honestly atm I can't even afford enough gas to go see a recruiter, so after my finances pan out I'll be going and talking to one. Should be either this upcoming week or the next I think, I get paid tomorrow. As for when I go into boot that will be entirely dependent on if they can use the ASVAB I took in 99 or if I will have to retake it...how soon I can retake it, and when they can get me through MEPS. After that I reckon I'll be given a date for when I'll be shipped off to boot. This is all assuming I'm physically ready to go in, I really feel like I need more upper body strength atm.

Cutting out sugar was my first step, I can't completely cut out all carbs from my diet however. If I try to completely cut out my carbs I end up binging and that really defeats the purpose, instead I try to ease back on what I would normally eat and go with smaller portions. I turn thirty in October. I know this is a late time in my life to be making this decision but I believe it is for the best. The worst case scenario is I get a rifle and have to go fight, I really have no qualms with pure soldier work...I have many ancestors whom have done this in my family and if its something fate decides then so be it. Optimally I'll go into Cryptology and learn to speak Chinese, in this case the most danger I would be in would be when I was stationed short term on a submarine or on a plane. Yeah I don't really like the idea of being on a boat that sinks or flying as I have done neither, but now is the time to "nut up or shut up" so to speak. Sink or swim, I have to let go of all my fears and just accept the things I have to do in life to better myself.

If I got the breaks I think I could make a great actor, but right now I really have to focus on keeping my feet on the ground. So go into the military, save money, learn a foreign language and get my body where I want it...gain some more self confidence. At 34 use the GI bill and go to college someplace I want to go or utilize my experience in the Navy to get a nice paying job...hell maybe do both. If I get the opportunity to audition for something I'll definitely give it a shot. Hell at the least I know I could do damn good voice acting for animated films, I'm working with my friends on getting a particular story arc published in comic form...and the co creators have agreed to let me do some of the voice work if it goes into animation.

Not that I know of, I know there is a drama department at my local college...but since I only went for two semesters I never got into those particular electives. I think maybe after I get out of the military I might take a few classes at whichever particular college I choose to go to, would be worth doing since the few times I've been on camera the producers said I conveyed gravitas.

Actually bud I used to GM tabletop RPG's and roleplay quite a bit in the late nineties/early 2k. I've also roleplayed quite a bit on multiplayer internet games. Always wanted to be an actor, but not too many opportunities around here.

Never heard of Hapkido, but I'll look it up.

lol!!! aw, you're giving it too much thought. Just have in your head that you are kind and that you truly want to b nice to people, and you're going to give off the vibe of exactly that. Eye contact might intimidate people, so yeah looking away every now and then while having a conversation might alleviate the awkwardness. But don't fret about it so much, or else people will notice that you're not being yourself. May I ask why does it matter so much for you to change your image?

My friend did Muay Thai, man is that martial art so deadly! I like martial arts for the discipline it teaches, I am not interested in a particular one tho. I just like discipline in general. haha

No, it's not just being respectful, you're making someone feel good about their job and more comfortable doing it. So that's a kind gesture. Also, smile. Smiling always brings people closer to you and make them feel comfortable and at ease around you. It gives you an image of a nicer person who is accepting and tolerant, and people love it when they can act themselves around someone and don't have to pretend.

And you're not talking a lot. You just have lots of substance! ... lol!

I like martial arts. Never learned it. I took a self defense class once, but it was very basic. It was made for women. The objective of it was to learn how to "break free" from someone's grip.

You keep saying "rather be seen as kind". So is it an outer image that you're looking for? Small things like a kind word or a smile, or a "thank you" or a "good luck" can very well give you the image you seek. However, it's the feeling part that's going to be hard. You should probably start a thread about that, and I'm sure a lot of the INFJs here will help you out and give you the insight you need. =)

You should take a look at the Kingdom hearts piano collections;

http://www.youtube.com/user/FF4eternity#p/c/F9705ECF49B7CF83

These piano adaptations take the songs to a whole new level of epicness. :m177:

hmm... that's wierd. What is your email? so i can email it to you?

No, I don't play soccer, I mean I did in P.E. but never in a team. I like the sport, it's beautiful. But I am not interested in playing. I am more interested in playing Basket Ball, I practice sometimes, but I am still not good enough.

Intelligent is also good. You can help people with your intelligence. I agree, you cannot be selfless as a person, but you can be selfless when helping people. You can help an old lady, because you can. You're not gaining anything from it, you're just doing it, because the old lady needs help and you can provide that help. It makes sense.

No baby!

It's not like that!

I was afraid! Afraid of being judged!

Please don't leeeeaavvvee me!

oh, stitch is pretty awesome. without his help i don't think i would have made it through the Hades cup. i just shivered. =p

I'm glad you had a good time on your cruise I went straight to work after my graduation, just now getting my life moving in a direction so I can do some traveling...I am so looking forward to that. I'm glad you have a drive towards self improvement, its not easy...but the benefits far outweigh the effort we put into it!

nice new sig... almost like it's a pickup line.

Long day...very very long day. Power went out right at shift change, had to stay about an hour over till the power came back on and we could count down the registers n such. Rough storms round the county tonight, power just has been restored at my house! How you been hoss?

yeahhh!! and I can't wait! haha I don't think I was ever this excited about soccer, maybe it's because I get it now.

Well, just people do and say some crazy stuff when they're drunk. Some of that stuff is funny, and some of it is just weird. So I guess people's true selves are weird? lol

Kind is good. Kind gets far in life, you just have to be selflessly kind and not actually want something in return. I learned that the hard way.