Wyst

There's a spider crawling on my arm.
Some months ago I was bitten by
a spider and contracted an infection
in my blood stream. I bled non-stop
for almost a week. My blood disgusting
looking and really pale. It left a scar
on my hip. You'd think this would
influence me to kill the things. But then
I think that why should they get such
a painless death. A quick sudden moment
of my finger pressing lightly on their bodies.
I bet their not even shocked. This seems a
really selfish reason not to kill something.

At night I drink water. I sit in my bed
and I read and I smoke and I drink water.
I cover myself under five blankets and I
move plants from my shelves and relocate
them to the stairwell so they don't get cold
and I open my window and I turn on my fan
and I lay there in the cold and I think.
Night is the only time I get to be alone.



Sometimes I think about you crying.

Hahahaa! Exactly! He has the kind of hips Zack would kill for.

Besides, there is a lot to be said for the androgynous, it certainley makes things more interesting.

No actually! I was aware of you before that, on account of the Buster sword swinging avatar and you joining the Final Fantasy club.

I recall I was curious, and did a brief background check (forum search), before coming to the conclusion that you were of the lady variety.


Then I sortof backlogged the issue as 'Wyst, girl with cute personality, good taste, likes tehz Cloud, worth looking into'

I was convinced you were female.

Ah well, a lover of Cloud Strife is a lover of mine

Ahahaha, I'm fine with both; I'm a guy tho.

Yes, getting a hug still stuns me like no other (if not sudden disgust). I've frozen a lot even in situations which only required social, detached hugs. All I did was let an awkward laugh, most minimal movement and....a lot of awkward silence afterwards. It's probably a bit of cultural differences too.

Ugh, that kind of guy sounds like a bit too affectionate for me. If you really wish to change, I can see a lot of distance in between, tho. Why do you think they wouldn't warm up ?

Yes, yes!!

If you live in Dallas then the next time I am in Texas, if you would like to get together, I'm sure I could find the time and means.

Right now, I live in Indiana.
But I might go live in France for a year or I might be getting a house in San Francisco with two good friends.


What part of Texas are you in?

No.


Modern travel techniques, senor.

Unfortunately you're quite a distance aways.

I'd rather show you, than tell you.
Words are very fickle things, you know.

Why is that?

I tend to wander off by myself if I've been drinking.
After I hugged everyone that night I walked a few
blocks away this really shady park and just laid there.
That seems dangerous when I think about it now...

And thank you for the exception
I'd make sure it wasn't one of poor-quality (;

Maybe this is to rationalize my own decision, but I think there are more things to being one,
and for me, those outweigh the annoying things you must do.
I want to help others too.

May I ask what your plans are?

I want to become a cop too.
What's the reason you want to become one if I may ask?

Just a cute voice.

Nah. Just the level of girls with cute voices.

Lol.


For real though one of my good friends lives there.

That's not me in the video, but the next time I'm in Texas, I'll let you know.

I apparently can't give you anymore rep today; but I really think your listening to the audio suggestion is quite an excellent concept.