Thank You MF, I appreciate your kind words, they are indeed very uplifting.Well the reason why I feel this way it's because I feel all sorts of negative emotions: fear,sadness,anger..I feel betrayed, someone did something horrible to me and well now everything feels like its falling apart again..I have explained what happened in my blog and well I sort of did through my poems as well which is why I feel so bad, I feel like I am drawing to much attention to myself and that you guys do not deserve to hear my negativity,..but here you are so kind and understanding....I just really can't stop crying..but than you so much..