Melkor

Good looks? Boy, I could be terribly unaesthetic.

I suppose people do stalk my facebook often enough..

As long as nothing stalks me for it

I'm back online.

As long as my ring isn't overly gaudy.


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It's nothing you want me to talk about here. That's why I said don't worry.

Don't worry bout it.

What's wrong, Melkor?

Oh, yeah... I didn't say thanks for the hug. Sorry, I thought I already replied, because I wrote something and then forgot to send it. I thought it was a nice gesture, but I was trying to work out if it was a real hug, or an INTP gesture that indicates dislike... mostly because I knew an INTP once that only hugged people they disliked.

Love is free? Well, I guess it's less scarce than money these days, but still not easy to come by.

Well, we both know what this means.

You've got yourself (another) pimp.

Ha you'd be surprised.

No problem Melkor!! Can't wait for a convo with you ^^~

I would agree that it seems wrong. I was only trying to make sure I gave you a view that wasn't totally biased by my distaste for Texas, but you clearly already share it. I think there is something vicious about Texas culture, though. Which is one reason I'd rather not be part of it.

Hehe. Yeah, I've always thought that marriage was a little silly. I mean, I see the same expression on someone's face whether they're about to get a divorce, or break up with their significant other. They clearly feel the same emotions in a relationship either way, so why create an entire legal mess regarding their relationship, like tax breaks, joint property, etc? They keep pushing in some states to legalize gay marriage, but I don't understand why they don't just abolish marriage as a legal status altogether. People could still have the religious ceremony... it's odd to me that the state is involved at all, given we're supposed to have separation of church and state.

Ah, did you understood my financial situation clearly, so you could consider it along with other factors while brainstorming?

Don't you wish it was easier to win the lottery or something? Sigh.

Not so hasty! There's always something to put to use. >.>

Indeed. That goes for intellectual property too. ^.^

It's my maternal instinct, you little dimwit, how can let others abuse my little Melly? You know I'm possessive and jealous.

Considering that she's done all that, and she's apparently female (I never would have guessed), it sounds like she might have done it. Although I would be careful... you don't want them to get upset and ban you.

VH is the one who made your text pink, by the way, so he might have had a hand in it.

I muuust...there's no other choice...Oh I hope I am forgiven..

Noooo...please

if you leave me..I die

LOL. Yes, I live in Texas. And I know... a lot of people around here are bigoted. The nicest people around here are immigrants, which is ironic considering how everyone complains about them dragging down the quality of our society.

I don't know... I think they don't usually uphold them, it's more of a symbolic gesture to discourage such people from living here. They chalk it up to promoting "family values." If they're actually caught, they're just fined, maybe given a short prison sentence or something... it's not like they execute you.

Your family? You're married and have kids? Or are you sending money to your parents? I can sort of relate to the latter, because I work for my dad, and send part of the money (but not most of it) to my mother in order to supplement her paycheck. The thing is, if I do move away... it may cut my ties with my family. Most of them live in Texas.

Well, I never look unkempt... appearance was the first thing I thought about with a job interview. The problem was that I couldn't get an interview, and would have trouble getting myself to it even if I could get one.

Ah, for me it's nothing like that. It's just the idea of maneuvering a large hunk of metal careening down the street at high velocity, while trying to avoid other hunks of metal doing the same thing. Also, I can't stand the way steering wheels work, how you have to turn them so far just to move the car a little bit. They feel clumsy and slow considering the life-or-death task of steering they're expected to perform.

Do I want to leave? Yes. Have I got the nerve to? Not really. But If I knew I could support myself long enough to look for a job elsewhere, I'd be fine. The problem is that the economy means it could take me a year or longer to find one... and there's no way I can survive for that long without support, at least not without saving up around $12,000 (about 9337 Euros, or 7870 Pounds, as of right now).

I've got just under $2,000 (about 1556 Euros, 1311 Pounds) now. It would take me just under 2 years to save up $12,000, by my calculations. The problem is that prices may go up enough in that time that it won't be enough by the time I have it... sigh. I hate inflation and these low interest rates. It was nearly impossible for me to find a savings account that pays 1% interest (most pay far less, like 0.10%), which I'm grateful to have. Unfortunately, the government taxes you on your interest if you make over $10 (about 7.8 Euros, or 6.5 Pounds) on it, which makes things even more complicated.

It could be, I don't know yet. I've never actually had a sex drive, but I understand the food analogy.

Possibilities? Well, it might be difficult to come up with anything. One of my main goals is to support myself, and get somewhere on my own. Here are the main constraints I'm operating under, and you'll see why I feel that I don't have too many options:

1. I only have a High School Diploma.

2. I never learned to drive because I'm afraid of driving, and don't think I could pay to maintain the vehicle if I were on my own, anyway. I live in Texas where you can barely get around the towns without a car. No sidewalks, cars rushing by, everything with a parking lot... the cities are all designed around people having their own cars. And there's no mass transit to speak of except in Dallas and a few other major cities, but they're not connected to each other.

3. I work for and live with my father, and while I'm saving money, it will probably be a while before I have enough to get out on my own and have a chance at finding a job. By that time, my father might have died, and left me enough of an inheritance that I won't have to worry about it.

4. I don't have any friends that are able to help me out.

5. I've never had a job before, aside from working for my father, and I have doubts about my ability to obtain and hold one. My earlier attempts to get one left me pessimistic, and with the impression that only people who know people can get jobs nowadays.

So, it really seems as though my best option is to stay put. The only question is for how long.

If you want to brainstorm, feel free. I'm open to hearing possibilities and theories.

Perhaps not exactly like me... but similar. Everyone is unique, if you think about it.

Not many people understand it. Trust me... it's not about beauty. I'd be quite glad simply not to have the feelings.

Yes, I suppose they can, because it's less threatening. I've heard that before.

Thanks. LOL.

Hmm... well, it's working, but I do occasionally find myself wondering if it's the best solution. Whether when I'm older, I'll regret not having explored alternatives. Still, there's plenty I can do with my life without touching that mess.