NeverAmI

Mostly I am, but I feel that time has come for a thorough check up, and some minor issues are in order to get resolved. I'm in a similar mood as I think you are at the moment, I want more, feel that I can achieve more and that I can and am able to get what I want and think I deserve at this moment in time. I think that for some people this feelings need to boil for quite some time, until they reach a point where they feel confident enough to change everything that needs to be changed. I think I am at that point now. And I know, because I've felt this before, that when I get restless like this, I get virtually unstoppable. I think you might be very similar to that description too.

I've never seen your windows.


Do you ever open your curtains?

Is this your way of telling me I am beauitful (;



Do you have a window in your bedroom?

Sure.

Just don't make fun of my
un-even paints

Ah, I tend to over analyse everything, from that job offer, another potential job offer that came out suddenly, what should I do with my health, what would be the best course of action for whatever. I actually work hard at the moment to define that particular moment in time when that over analysing starts and to stop it before my brain gets hurt. :)

I love Roisin, even more so than when she was in Moloko, her persona is so unique and beautiful. If you liked that one here's several others that you should listen to:

[ame="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bfo1878wd60"]YouTube - Moloko - Music Video : Forever More[/ame]

[ame="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uU9q8PQ3sns"]YouTube - Roisin Murphy - If We're In Love[/ame]

[ame="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eYvxOL57D_I"]YouTube - Roisin Murphy - Primitive[/ame]

[ame="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mWhO2yGRHyc"]YouTube - ROISIN MURPHY - DEAR MIAMI FULL LENGTH + LYRICS[/ame]

It is definitely why we love him so much


I over-think things too :x
I never think my yellows look
the same shade when I water-colour.

I do.





I do most sorts of arts and crafts.
I love to make beautiful things.

I tend to listen to a wide variety of music.
I like to keep my mind auditorily open.
Though most things I listen to do tend to
be more mellow.


I can share things with you if you want.
Though I do a lot of arts and crafts so
I don't think I'll share those with you unless
you want me to?

I really enjoy making mix cds.
It's a closet hobby/passion
of mine.


And thanks!


KYKYWKA is Russian


I'm glad my boys love their namesake song

Thanks, I hope it will all turn out good with them.

Not as good as it seemed at first, but we'll see in the next few weeks, he started to get out off bed, but is still very weak.

Wow, I'm glad that you are pulling it off as you planed. How do you feel now, any different?

Well, I'm trying not to over analyse some things happening lately. Not sure will I be able to resist the urge to do so in the long run, I'm doomed.

Today they started talking with me about staying at this job permanently. They are aware that I'm going to finish with master's soon, so negotiations are in order. I'm trying not to freak out of happiness too much.

What's new with you? Still abstaining from caffeine?

These are all the songs I'm considering putting on it:

love is a chain store - the ropes

comtine d'un autre ete (l'apres midi)

the girl from ipanema

all alone again, naturally - gilbert o'sullivan

vienne - billy joel

I don't like it like this, the radio dept.

"there's something happening here, what it is aint exactly clear"

wolf like me - tv on the radio

if you're going to san francisco, be sure to wear flowers in your hair


KYKYWKA - Victor Tsoi


Kiss Me Again - Jessica Lea Mayfield


Au Revoir Simone - All or Nothing


dream a little dream of me the mammas and the pappas


"don't you see it's wrong can't you get it right. out of mind and out of sight.
call on all your girls don't forget the boys. put a lid on all that noise."


The Sea is a good place to think of the future - los campesinos


francois hardy tous les garcons et les filles

Wondering why people have to be such passive-aggressive bitches.

I'm feeling angry and upset and feisty.
Like I have too many chemicals swimming around
the top of my spine.


I'm thinking about making a mix cd
to mail to my friend on the coast.
Her grandma's sick. I think it may
help to cheer her up.

*hugs*


Of course I am.




You are very nice to me.

How was it?


How did you almost die?

I promise I haven't forgotten to respond to your wall messages. Soon!

I'm not uncomfortable with it.


And yes, I do. A lot of things
make me nervous and then I
just, I don't know, become
overwhelmed.

No. I cannot.


It's difficult for me to answer
open-ended questions. I become
very anxious and worry that
my reply will not meet the questioner's
standards or wants. And then I'll
start to freak out and sometimes I'll
have a panic attack if I'm having a
good day/sarcasm)

I would describe you as wary, safe.
I think you are structured and I think
you are highly intelligent and pursue
those things that interest you. You
are true to yourself and your passions.


And I think you're a great squid father.

I felt entirely out of my element at first.
I was immediately insulted and* offended
by a member so I was under the impression
that this place was not a very nice
place. I was on edge and wary.



What do you think of yourself?