Skarekrow

You're welcome.

:washing: :flock: layball: :laser:

In some way, I do talk to her and I also hear her in my head.
As for the life after death, there is definitely something more.
Unfortunately, I also had a near death experience.. let's say that I was a bit suicidal and had a rough time and in one point i decided to end it.
Until then, I was a tipical high school cool kid that woud bully someone from time to time..
After I woke up in hospital and saw my mom begging the god to save my life and after feeling the things I felt while in coma.. now, I'm a person who loves life more than anything.
There is more than this life, I guarantee you..

Hi and thanks for caring. I don't know what to say.. hugh and quick oscilations in mood.
It hurts a lot, like nothing so far. I bought a new lens, hopefully it will drag me out of the house.
My dad is stressing me. He has very bad temper and used to psychicaly bully us.
It's now 20 days since mom died and he is starting to behave like before.
My heart and mind are total mess right now and I have no strenght to deal with him.
When he returns, I'll try to talk with him because I'm just not strong enough right now to eat his shit or to run away from home to Germany
but also I will anything to keep my common sense and if there is no other way, I will leave to Germany anyway..
Life is really hard at this point..
If only mom was here to direct me

The dialogue box of my life

I <3 u and u r a

yeah, i guess that makes sense.

Thank you, good thread.

Last class tomorrow and then I'm certified. x0x She rambled all about Merkabah to me today (says she learned about it from a healer who blew her mind), still has not checked your thread though XP

Tnx man I really apriciate this, that's something I definitely need. Siddartha by H. Hesse was mine comforting book.
If I'm doing ok, to be honest, I don't know. Wakening is painfull. Rest of day goes trough some half dream feeling.
When you think about that my mom had a mom and her mom had a mom.. and same in every familly..

I'm just glad you're ok - hang in there buddy!

you can smile and smile and be a villain - Shakespeare

@rep. you dont lead with that when consoling people, you ask questions to engage them first and then you can provide consolation only then

@rep. you misunderstand, taking the first act for the closing act or the whole of the play all the time

Will do :l

Wish I had a real life Alakazam Pokemon. He'd keep weird crap out of my house...

My first experience with one was when I was doing a Buddhist chant. There was no intent to connect with anything... Was just chanting.

Did they really say that? Why do they feel so entitled? I figure it is a way of saying I'll leave it up to you to figure out what I really am but I'll say that to keep you interested in the mean time.

I gave this song to my cat as a theme song >.>

http://youtu.be/u8JiruXCkt0

A lot of the material I am studying from the book she gave me resonates with many posts in the thread; especially stuff about people connecting with their past lives and how that can still block people's life energy if for some reason or another they have incidents where they connect with the energy from that time. I am curious to see what she thinks of all that. I know so many people who think that stuff is hokey pokey but eeeeeerm I've done so much spiritual stuff and have met with supposed psychic people who have called me on some of the stuff I've thought I encountered but felt weird talking about because again, to them I could be hokey pokey. And so many jokes about me having summoned a demi god I'm never going to be let down for that one -_-;; But there's ACTUAL TRUTH to it rofl. Haha. Anyways gonna email her the thread...