Fear itself...?
I'm starting to think,it's fear itself-that I'm most afraid of...I mean,I've had a life of crippling fear from dysfunctional family;deeply disturbed,traumatized mother,siblings,who treated me poorly(much older than me,for whatever it matters),born with disabilities not even started being diagnosed accurately till I was 35 yrs.old.Yup,you can say it:my life has been Hell...!...So I am starting to figure out,the biggest feature of my fear(s) in life(and justifiably so) is/are my -fear of fear itself.Let me explain.The aforementioned problems,have caused me to live a life semi crippled by chronic fear.I have been,as a result chronically afraid,of being afraid.Sound crazy?I don't believe it is.I do believe-it's more common,than anyone thinks:and this in particular,among us INFJ's.Winston Churchill was famous for saying:"We have nothing to fear-but fear,itself".Incredible.He Championed the British people,during the dark times of threat by possibility of total enslavement to Nazi rule.Think they-had to deal with they're own fears?Evidently.As bad as the Nazi threat was,they're own fear-was more-dangerous..!...They didn't give up,and primarily,by not giving up,to they're own fear(s).Well,this is like journaling,to me.I needed to do this,right now.This is-a public forum,so if any are put-off,offended,or discouraged by what I've written here,feel free to say so.About discouragement:don't let the life experience(s),I've outlined here-discourage you.I'm still here,aren't I?Aren't I?Take Heart(meaning:allow your positive motivations to shine-at the very least,within you,and to you)...