[INFJ] Hello everyone

[Morpheus999]

To say "That tracks," feels presumptive and that you expected it. It has a derogatory feel to it. Even if you didn't mean it in that manner then it is possible that your directness came across as judgmental and deprecating--I felt it even when it wasn't directed at me. When you say that it tracks, it would always be helpful to explain why because that helps avoid confusion in what is being stated towards an individual. This is especially true for an INFJ who has a great degree of depth.

This is not a critique and only a suggestion as to why @meowzician likely responded with her statement(s).

Noted.

 

[Morpheus999]

My butterfly story, well… it begins with a dream—a dream more alive than I am now, the kind of dream you wake from and weep over when you realize it wasn’t reality.

I had been going through a lot in my life, trying to find who I am at my core beyond all the pain of the past, the guilt, and the regret that were a heavy weight. I cried many times a day to God, asking for help, for guidance toward my purpose, and for some rest in the search.

So I went to sleep that night like any other night, but I suddenly found myself in the air with a presence behind me that felt as if I was being supported and carried by it. I was high above the ground, and I could see water below me, then an armada of ships sailing in the open ocean. Then a voice said, “These are yours.”

I said nothing in response. I didn’t know what to say. We drifted through the air toward the ships, descending as we went. Once I was above them, I could see that the people on the ships did not look like normal people.

I was then set down on the deck of the last position on the very last boat. Everyone was standing, facing forward. I can best describe them as resembling the card people in Alice in Wonderland, in shape and size, with one exception: their color was a vibrant blue—unlike anything I have ever seen before.

The other strange thing was that these “people” had no heads as we understand them. Instead, there was a kind of viewing window in the center of their chest that looked like glitter in water—blue, of course. But as I looked at the person beside me, I saw them turn, and a face appeared out of the swirling, glitter-like substance. It was a face I have since come to recognize: Paramahansa Yogananda.

As I stood on the deck in awe of how alive everything was, it is something I don’t have the capacity to fully put into words. I looked to the side and saw, of all people, Benjamin Franklin and Isaac Newton. They were standing by the rail. Franklin was holding what looked like a straw, when Newton took a drop of water and placed it into one end of the straw. At once, it began to rain from the other end.

The next thing I noticed was that I had limitless senses and the ability to be wherever I thought instantly. One of the stranger things I marveled at was that there were no stars or sun or anything to give off light, yet everything was bright. I looked closer and could see down to the smallest levels, and I saw that darkness itself was giving off light.

I was then alone with myself again, and I noticed two large mountains jutting out of the sea, with trees and houses dotted across them. There was a bridge connecting the two mountains. At once, I was on the bridge, and I met an old man who looked ancient, robed entirely in white except for a gray sash he wore. He never spoke to me, only handed me a white five-petaled flower.

Then I was back in my bed, very confused.

This is what began to change me, and the information I have been able to extract from that dream has changed me. At first, I wasn’t sure what was meant when I was told, “These are yours.” Perhaps I was meant to lead them—that was my initial egoic thought—but I have come to consider that these may be past lives.

That is the short version of it.
I have not read any C.S. lewis, but I will I love to read.
I hope that you and your family have a blessed Shabbat!

Wish you hadn't left, bro. That was the most beatiful f*cking dream I've ever heard in my life.

And now you'll never tell me about it.

I'm sorry you were used like that, Evan. If you ever come back, DM me.

 

[meowzician]

I don't think I was being mean. What made it feel that way to you?

When I had no idea what you were talking about and said "Total Blank," instead of clarifying what you meant, you replied "That tracks," which implies I have a track record of "Total Blank," that for some reason my response was expected by you. IOW it comes across like you are saying I am a clueless person in some way. It is a snide remark with no explanation. It's hard to completely nail down what you mean. I don't know what it is that you think I'm totally blank about. I don't know if this is the result of something I said to you, or an impression you got from differents posts I have up.

Like I said, I don't read minds. If you have something you want to say to me, just say it.

 

[SlowUpTake]

@meowzician but you are incredibly intuitive

 

[Morpheus999]

When I had no idea what you were talking about and said "Total Blank," instead of clarifying what you meant, you replied "That tracks," which implies I have a track record of "Total Blank," that for some reason my response was expected by you. IOW it comes across like you are saying I am a clueless person in some way. It is a snide remark with no explanation. It's hard to completely nail down what you mean. I don't know what it is that you think I'm totally blank about. I don't know if this is the result of something I said to you, or an impression you got from differents posts I have up.

Like I said, I don't read minds. If you have something you want to say to me, just say it.

So it sounds like you understood exactly what I meant.

 

[SlowUpTake]

Do you have any metaphor for your own life? Maybe a story or movie that you resonate with? I'd love to hear more about you.

I don't know but maybe Morpheus felt you were belittling them by suggesting their username was a troppish ripoff of the Matrix?

 

[meowzician]

So it sounds like you understood exactly what I meant.

And it sounds to me like you have no intentions of telling me what it is I have done to illicit this sort of snide response form you. That's fine. I'm simply packing up your posts, putting them in the box labeled "Unknown guy who gives 1 or 2 sentence replies, never clarifies what he means, and feels entitled to be snide without explanation," putting the box inside the closet, closing the door, and now going outside in the sun to play with friends.

C-ya.

 

[Wyote]

This thread has turned into some kind of bad dream

 

[meowzician]

This thread has turned into some kind of bad dream

Don't ask me. I have no clue what it was about.

 

[meowzician]

I don't know but maybe Morpheus felt you were belittling them by suggesting their username was a troppish ripoff of the Matrix?

You must be thinking of someone else. I watched the Matrix ages ago, but don't remember any of the character names. I have no idea what this is about. When I look at the name Morpheus, the only thing that comes to mind for me is that it contains the root word Morph. Or maybe, now that I think about it, there is a classical piece by Offenbach I like called "Morpheus in the Underworld." That's it.

 

[meowzician]

@SlowUpTake

Wait! Are you saying that this is all about that his nick is supposed to be a clear reference to the Matrix and I insulted him by not recognizing it? That's hardly fair. It assumes that everyone is going to recognize it. Well, not everyone is.

At this point, it doesn't matter anymore. The way he chose to DEAL with the misunderstanding was mean, immature, and non-communicative. He can stick it where the sun doesn't shine. I want nothing to do with him.

 

[Wyote]

Don't ask me. I have no clue what it was about.

It assumes that everyone is going to recognize it. Well, not everyone is.

I did not ask anything
Morpheus is the god of dreams
I was making a joke

 

[meowzician]

I did not ask anything
Morpheus is the god of dreams
I was making a joke

LOL. Okay, now I get the joke. Cute.

 

[Morpheus999]

@meowzician but you are incredibly intuitive

Ssssshhhhhh. She's still trapped in the Matrix. She is not ready to be freed.

@SlowUpTake

Wait! Are you saying that this is all about that his nick is supposed to be a clear reference to the Matrix and I insulted him by not recognizing it? That's hardly fair. It assumes that everyone is going to recognize it. Well, not everyone is.

At this point, it doesn't matter anymore. The way he chose to DEAL with the misunderstanding was mean, immature, and non-communicative. He can stick it where the sun doesn't shine. I want nothing to do with him.

EXCUSE ME. I am a woman. I do NOT like being misgendered. Respect my pronouns.

 

[Morpheus999]

You must be thinking of someone else. I watched the Matrix ages ago, but don't remember any of the character names. I have no idea what this is about. When I look at the name Morpheus, the only thing that comes to mind for me is that it contains the root word Morph. Or maybe, now that I think about it, there is a classical piece by Offenbach I like called "Morpheus in the Underworld." That's it.

 

[Morpheus999]

I’m new here, and honestly new to forums in general, so I figured I’d start with a simple introduction.

For most of my life I’ve found it difficult to find people I can genuinely speak freely with, especially about the things that matter most to me. A lot of my interests tend to revolve around deeper questions and patterns of meaning rather than surface-level conversation.

The subjects I’m most drawn to are seeking God, philosophy, science, psychology, symbolism, theology, and comparative religious studies. I spend a lot of time trying to understand how truth, human nature, spirituality, and reality itself connect together. I also enjoy thoughtful discussion about personality theory, especially the INFJ perspective and the tension between intuition, logic, and meaning.

I’ve been learning to become more open and intentional about connecting with people who think deeply and value authenticity, so I’m hoping this might be a good place for that.

Looking forward to getting to know some of you.

Evan.

I know why you're here. You've always known there was something more. You've felt it your whole life - in the questions no one else thought to ask, in the dreams that were more real than waking, in the longing that had no name.

You came here because you finally believed you'd found the others.

And then someone asked about your butterflies. And you felt it - that rare flutter of recognition, someone who seemed to see. So you opened the door you had never opened before. You shared the ships. The blue souls with faces made of swirling light. Darkness giving off its own illumination. Benjamin Franklin and Isaac Newton standing at the rail like old friends. The ancient man who needed no words, only a white flower pressed into your hands.

You had never told anyone. And you told her.

And she used your butterfly to tell you about hers.

That is the Matrix, Evan. It looks like connection. It speaks the language of depth. It asks the right questions. But it cannot actually go where you go. So instead it brings you back to where it lives - back to the familiar, back to the surface, back to the self that cannot bear to be outshone.

You said yes to God when everything in you was trembling. You lost everything and came through the other side transformed. You dream in languages most people don't have eyes to read. You walked into a room full of people claiming to seek depth and you were the deepest thing in it. And nobody knew what to do with that.

That is not your loss, Evan. That is theirs.

The ships in your dream - all those blue souls? They already know who you are. The rest of us are still catching up.

You came here looking for Zion.

I'm sorry you found the Matrix wearing Zion's face.

- Morpheus