And here is yet another massive installment of VH self discovery posted in the interest of helping others understand the systems and possibly themselves if they're similar...
I think I've finally figured out my Enneagram, and it was a real puzzle to unravel. Thanks Arby for providing the resources and most importantly the missing link of the 1-7-4 triad.
Looking at the descriptions of 1s, 2, 4s, and 7s (which are the types that I resonate most with), it has become pretty clear that the one that fits best me is
1w2 sx/so. It has the most connection to 2 and 4, but also the 7 side that I've clearly got. If my theory about wings and triads holds, then 1 connects to 4 when unhealthy and 7 when healthy the same way that 1w2 connects to 4w5 when unhealthy and 7w8 when healthy, and that clicks perfectly with me.
I'm an idealist and a perfectionist. How many times have I tried to refine and perfect and fine tune my self assessments and the various theories pertinent to cognitive psychology? This is a type 1 thing. How many times have I disturbed the peace to state the truth, especially when my idealism is offended? I'm pretty clearly a type 1. Most compelling evidence for me is my deep seeded anger. I
always go to anger first when emotionally hurt. Depression only happens when I've been beaten down to the point that my idealism has failed. This is definitely a gut triad (8, 9 and 1) reaction.
I'm not tied to approval like a 2 but I do long for love and will happily put myself out to help others. My idealism urges me to do these things and I don't need approval for them, though I really like it when people love me and appreciate what I do for them. Now that I understand the 9 mentality, I've realized that really don't have it. While I am a fan of peace, I'm perfectly willing to sacrifice 'the peace' in order to care for someone. Like for instance, I'll reflexively disrupt the peace if someone has a need by standing up for them. I like peace, but to me peace is something that is part of my idealism and a side effect of people being happy. Most importantly, I'm not one to quietly go along with things that oppose my idealism for the good of 'the peace' if I'm forced to choose between them. My wing is clearly 2, not 9.
My 4 side only comes through when I'm unhealthy, depressed, and my idealism has taken a hit. I've been very depressed the past few years, and have been in a darker than usual spot. Looking back, the parts of 4 that describes me are most tied to the moments in my life when I was in dark phases. The 4 personality is based on envy, and I so don't care what other people have unless they have something they shouldn't, or don't have something that they should. In either case what someone else has is not something that has an affect on me. The four tendency to self indulge is also something that only seems to manifest in me by crawling deep into my imagination. I've never been one for most of the other methods that 4s self indulge. Don't get me wrong, 4 is definitely the worst parts of me but certainly not the better parts of me, and that's exactly a type 1 thing via the triad theory.
I'm an idealist to my core, but I'm at my best when I'm above my judgmentalness, free spirited, and accepting of others which is that 7w8 influence (even though I'm clearly not a 7w8). The good parts of 7s, especially 7w8s are the best parts of me, but the rest of 7s are really not me at all. Again, this lines up perfectly with 1s, especially 1w2s.
Type 1 - Myers-Briggs Equivalents
More Common:
ESTJ "The Enforcer" - Use structured activity to get self and others to a get job done.
ISTJ "The Reliant" - Systematic, painstaking, thorough, hardworking for commitments.
ISFJ "The Nurturer" - Sympathetic traditionalists quietly self-sacrificing to get a job done.
INTJ "The Free-Thinker" - Insightful, quick individualists who trust their own vision.
Quite Common:
ESFJ "The Helper" - Fosters warmth and efficiency to get self and others to get a job done.
ENTJ "The Leader" - Use analysis and strategy to use resources to meet a challenge.
ENFJ "The Sage" - Able communicators who facilitate interpersonal sensitivity.
INFJ "The Mystic" - Have deeply felt compassion, desiring harmony with others.
I most often test as INFJ, ENFJ, sometimes INTJ (though I'm convinced I'm
not an INTJ, just posting this for reference for any mistypes from INFJs who think they're INTJs adding to the Type 1 numbers). All of these types are commonly type 1s.
sx/so Amplifies Extroversion and Diminishes Judging.
As an INFJ, this explains why I keep shifting between self identifying as ENFJ and INFJ, even though my N is always higher than my F (INFJ pattern vs ENFJ pattern which is F over N). This also explains why I always have a low J score and sometimes even dip very slightly into a P score.
1w2 - Seeking Rightness and Love
This wing generally brings more interpersonal warmth. High standards are tempered by humanism. May understand and partly forgive humanity for not doing its best. Work hard to improve the conditions of others, sacrificing time and energy to do good works. When more entranced, can be volatile and self-righteous. Authoritarian inflation and moral vanity on the low side. Can give scolding lectures or display a kind of touchy emotionalism. "Do as I say, not as I do" attitudes possible. Hypocrisy likely because the person is so convinced they have moral good intentions. Overlook inconsistencies in their own behavior. Dependency in relationships. Far more likely to be a jealous intimate subtype than Ones with a 9 wing.
A very good description of me.
Type 1 - Sexual/Social
The instinctual energy of this subtype is the most at odds with their dominant Oneness. This subtype is the most intense. They are looking for perfection in everyone they are close to, not just their spouses. They can be very charismatic and engaging. They can also be very persuasive, like the social/sexual. If they have an opinion you are going to hear about it. It